Friday at work, a sister of one of the ladies I work with came into the office. It was kind of comical to see how much they looked and sounded so alike. It definitely reminded me of Rachael and I. It seems like everyone tells us how much we sound alike and how you can definitely tell we're sisters. But to be honest, the whole experience just reminded me of how far away from my family I am. I know, I was having another pitty-party. But my thought process went something like this: 1) Haha! You and you're sister remind me of me and mine! 2) Aww, that's sweet that family members come in to say hi at work. 3) Aw... that makes me kind of bummmed... my family is too far away. 4) Stupid North Carolina! You're too far away from Missouri! 5) *pushing thoughts out of my head and trying to concentrate at work*
I don't know why it's bothering me so much lately. Maybe because Greg and Hilary (my brother and sister-in-law) got to go home last week and I won't be able to see family until Thanksgiving. I guess it just all hit home too hard. I normally don't dwell too long on it, just because it makes me sad so quickly. So I guess you could say my coping mechanism for that would be denial - I try not to think about it. And when I do think about it, I don't dwell on it and force myself to focus on something else.
Like even now, I had so many thoughts racing through my head, but when I try to "write" them all down, I don't want to make myself think about it. So instead, I'm going to go get ready for church.
Love you all. So much.
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